Curve Balls | Sharon
So Steve and I have been MIA for a little bit but now we’re trying to get back on track. Life has been a little crazy the past little bit with some unexpected tragedy in my life.
A week ago, my dog of 11 years suddenly passed away and it was a complete shock to me and my family. We’ve had him since he was a puppy and a week ago today, he was with us one moment, healthy and happy as he always is, and then gone the next. He succumbed to what the vets believed to be a blood clot or a ruptured tumor in his brain. I was actually in bed when my mother noticed something was wrong and she woke me up to tell me they needed to bring him to the ER. (Yes, they have emergency rooms for pets) Next thing I knew, I was getting a phone call from my mother just after midnight, about an hour or so after they left the house, telling me that our Chico was gone. Just like that. While there are some that don’t understand the pain of losing a pet, I know you animal lovers out there know what it’s like to love a pet and to have them as part of your family. It truly is like losing a family member and completely broke my heart. I didn’t get a chance to see him or say goodbye. His death came about a month after my cat, Holly of 12 years, suddenly fell ill and we had to put her down after a few days when her heart struggled to barely even keep a beat. A sad start to a new year but hopefully we’ll get the sadness out of the way and only have great things to come. A couple days after Chico’s passing, Steve was sick and I spent the night taking care of him. The next day I get a text that he’s in the ER being tested for appendicitis. 6 hours later, we learn that thankfully he doesn’t have it and has an infection and was sent home with antibiotics.
As we all know, life is weird like this. It throws curve balls at you and all you can do is deal with it. You can’t change things, you can’t make sadness, anger, or worry go away. You’re left sometimes without answers and just left to deal with what’s been handed to you. I won’t lie. Death scares me. I’m horribly afraid of losing the ones I love and of being painfully unprepared, so when Steve fell ill I was just wracked with worry. (Yes, I know appendicitis doesn’t mean imminent death – I watched ER religiously – but I’m a worry wort) Steve is my rock and my best friend, and I intend to spend the rest of my life being with him…and annoying the crap out of him 🙂
Times like these just makes you value every second with those special people in your lives. Every annoying, angering, frustrating, loving, funny, silly, teary, goofy, quirky moment. You can’t predict when a curve ball is coming at you, but at least you can make sure that the moments leading up to it and the moments following it are the best you can make them.