Love you more | Sharon
There are days when you feel great and feel on top of the world. You look awesome and you are awesome! But then there are also those days when you feel not-so-great, not good enough, not skinny enough, not fit enough, not <insert adjective> enough. This is one of those days.
I’ve been told I’m my own worst enemy – I’m always the hardest on myself and my own toughest critic. Like many girls (and guys), there are days when you just don’t feel as confident in yourself and have a low self-esteem attack. I’ll be the first to admit that I have lots of insecurities, with body image being one of them. There are days when I don’t feel beautiful, that I feel fat and ugly and not as pretty as the next girl. While I am a pretty active individual, there are just those days when I feel like I’m not getting the results I want and that someone else has the arms, legs, abs, skin, etc. that I want for myself.
It’s in these times that Steve truly steps in and picks me up. It’s in these times that he tells me I’m beautiful, on the inside and out, and that no I’m not fat (he’s no chubby chaser) and that yes, I look amazing and have a great body, smile, eyes, everything. It’s in these times that loves me more than I love myself, that he loves me twice as much to make up for my lack of confidence, and he’s telling me this not as my boyfriend, but as my best friend and as a regular guy.
On the radio the other day, a guy called him to ask for the public’s opinion on whether he should break up with his girlfriend because she dyed her hair brown. He’s normally into blondes, he said, and now that she’s a brunette, he’s not attracted to her anymore. I couldn’t help but feel so bad for the girl to have a guy whose attraction towards her is based on her hair colour. In a relationship, it’s important to have that love and attraction that goes beyond the physical. Looks fade, wrinkles creep onto our faces, our bodies inevitably change with age…and so on days like these when I’m caught up in a downward spiral of nitpicking and obsessing over everything that’s wrong with the way I look, it means everything to have someone there to remind me that yes I do look beautiful, and that I am beautiful, and that I will always be beautiful in his eyes.
While it does still play a part, a relationship is more than just physical attraction. It’s about loving each other beyond hair colour, fat rolls, bad skin, and all those imaginary imperfections on what’s actually a perfect human being in someone else’s eyes. And on days like these, you get through it, feel better, and remember to love yourself because someone else has loved you more.